I told myself I wasn't going to post on forums anymore but I can't pry myself away from them. Alligagorbling is an alter ego. In person I am in no way as wild as I portray myself. Everything I have posted has been truth, I don't lie, but I blow things up and sometimes exaggerate. I post about the most "interesting" aspects of my life. You guys have a NARROW window into my life. I don't know why I feel the need to show off online. I've always been this way. ... in person though I am actually quiet and humble. I put others wants and needs before mine. ... that said I am incredibly self centered and egotistical. Its a paradox. Alligagorbling has been an alter ego of mine since the early 2000s. Alligagorbling gets people riled up, he shows off, he brags, sometimes starts arguments. I think the reason I'm addicted to social media is I don't have a clear idea of who I am so I look for constant validation. I attention seek. If one were to describe me as I act in person they would probably say quiet, meek, humble and caring. I'm not nearly as unstable as I portray Alligagorbling to be. Yes I have mental illness but youd never know it, you could come live with me for a week and when you left youd say "wow that's a level headed guy". My meds are on point. My thought process is "normal" I feel "normal" I think it all comes back to my obsession with myself. Hence even posting this thread. I'm going to continue to be part of the MF community but I won't share as much personal information because its SO much more to it than the couple paragraphs I share. I won't troll, I won't show off, its a lot of things I won't do from here out. So anyways..... its been a fun run. Alligagorbling is banned from a few forums for life. A couple im banned from as we speak lol For what its worth MF is my favorite forum of all ive ever been a part of. The mods here are incredibly fair and unbiased. Thank for the good work guys. The community here is fantastic. You guys are awesome. I joined because MF has a reputation for being rough around the edges. Yes guys, MF is mentioned on other forums ive been a part of. So anyways thanks for letting me share. If anyone has a question I'd be happy to answer (you'd just be contributing to my attention seeking behavior but it could be fun) RIP alligatorbling 2001-2020 By the way, ill still probably start several threads a week. I like having things to talk about that are on my mind. You guys are my bros. Its fun hanging out with the guys..... that makes me wonder, is there any women here?