Any other recovering alcoholics here? My last drink was February 27th 2015. Yeah yeah yeah I know I smoke a little grass here and there so I can't say I'm truly clean and sober. With grass I can have it for a week then not get anymore for 2 months, which is how we do it. But drinking.... once I start I simply can't stop. Once I put it in me I will go until I black out. I've been incarnated several times all because of alcohol. Ive been to rehab 3 times. So how did I stop? I ended up arrested and locked in a suicide watch cell. It was no mat to lay on and no blanket. They pit you in there naked. Its a concrete square of a room with a toilet. No bed, no chair. Nothing. I spent 17 hours in there. I was blind drunk. Around hour 6 I started to say how the fuck did I get here? What led up to this? Why can't I stop drinking? Here is the aha moment and i had never thought this before until that very moment. I said holy shit. Alcohol is not my problem. I am my problem. Alcohol is a symptom of a sickness and I am the sickness. I got bonded out the next day, made a phone call and was in a rehab facility by noon. I was a cell dependent alcoholic so they had to give me meds to prevent seizures. I won't write my life story, if your interested to hear it I can give you my phone number. I will say this. My life is better than its ever been and I owe most of it to not drinking. The mental obsession is gone. I don't miss it and honestly I do not think about it unless I'm in an AA meeting or telling my story. Today life is grand.... and the cool thing about it is I never have to drink again.