Originally Posted by KickStart

Jessta, my man: I know that unwanted advice can sound like criticism. That is not my intention with responding to your thread.

I was once exactly like you. I felt like I never fit in anywhere and I would never amount to anything. I always felt the other kids I was around had been given some sort of information or insight into life I wasn't given. I was wrong. They all felt screwed up too, just didn't show it. I eventually stopped comparing my insides to their outsides. I stopped trying to please everyone around me and became true to myself. That doesn't mean I quit performing the boring mundane everyday things being a productive member of society requires, like WORKING. I eventually started acting like the man I wanted to become. I began making choices that would ultimately be good for me and my future.

I can't tell you how important it is to keep your cool and NOT give into all the crap that is rattling around in your head. Slow yourself down a little bit. Take a deep breath and try not to get overwhelmed. Think things through and stop being so hard on yourself.

I kept on with my music and my art, as you should too, and actually became really good at what I do. Today when I attempt to learn something, I learn every aspect of that subject or thing or song I can. I put my whole self into it, whatever it is.

I think today my goal in my life, especially with my son is to be a good example. Act like the man you want to become, the man you want to look up too. Stop the weed, I know it's not killing you, but it can stunt your emotional growth. There is time for that later.

Hang in there and KEEP ON PLAYING GUITAR!!!! You will grow up and one day have a quality of life you never imagined.